Today I am grateful for those times of reflection I have before I go to sleep at night. Lately, I have been slack, and I have not been using those periods of silence in the dark to really reflect. Instead, I have been letting my mind wander as it will, which usually leads to a comical string of pure ADD and I end up thinking about work at the beginning then something like the flying squirrels of South America at the end. We all do that, right? (Lord, I hope so!)
But I used to use that time to really focus on my gratitudes, to tell the Universe how grateful I am for the blessings I have received, to really say “Thank you” in the most heartfelt way I can. It takes discipline, and it takes practice, but I have slacked.
Well, last night, I got back on that bandwagon, and it was wonderful. I was focusing on love – my fiance, my children, my family, all the love that I have for them all and from them all, and it brought me to tears. Scott was asleep, but when I was done, I had to send him an IM over Skype to tell him how much I appreciated everything he does for me, which I haven’t done in a while. Which also made me realize that I need to focus every day on doing acts of conscious giving specifically for my family as WELL as the rest of the world. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I am kind and loving with them every day, but they should ALWAYS get the benefits of conscious giving, they are my most precious people.